We had joy brought to our family on Tuesday,
baby Abigail was born, lets just say very early in the morning.

My sister rang to tell me, so I called her granny,
she says hah thats scary but you are a GREAT aunt,
I said, but that is nothing new, I have always been a
great aunt!!

So she called me a bitch and I left it at that,
its lovely for them, and they will make great grandparents
so welcome to this crazy world and this crazy family Abigail.
Welcome.

Number two child, my eldest daughter, was 18 yesterday,
I find it unbelievable how fast time has gone, and
how much she has grown, if feels like a blink of the eye,
and the time has passed for us.

Wow 18 years, and for me
when I look back it feels a cross between 18 minutes, 18 days,
and then 18 years.
I do of course feel it in my bones,
if not in my brain....

Anyway she had a great party, has found her first real sweetheart,
and is a happy bunny all round.
I'm glad, I hope her year continues, to be a good one.
She is one gorgeous, loving, kind, sensitive young woman.

Of course she gets all that from me!!...
(Almost complete tongue in cheek for that comment)

M

The weekend just gone, was Easter.
It was nice because I was off,
I like to spend special days at home,
it feels like I'm being a good mammy,
not off working, I'm doing what I am suppose
to do, I'm with my family, and even though
I drive them mad sometimes I know
they like it when I am here
on those special days too.

I'm not sure if it is still awkward for them
that he is not here too, I think it is but
maybe that is because it still awkward for me
and I presume it is for them too, but young people
accept things as different quicker, I think, or
maybe I'm presuming that too,
Guess what? I don't know,
Im winging it.

I actually started this post about Easter,
thinking I would be chatting about how
I went out, had a good night, had a laugh.
Missed mam, spent time with my earth angel,
our kids, their mates, dad, all of these things
I did, and then I typed about him and the poor me again,
Sorry,
I'll try better next time.

M

I had another great night out last night,
I went to a party, now the only almost freaked me out
thing about this party, is that I have gone up a decade.

I am now attending 50th parties, up to this year,
they had been either friends 40s or their childrens 21st,
So I am growing old, however, I am glad to say not gracefully.

The music was a blast from the past, I was back in my youth,
I swear that its been a pretty long time since I rocked non stop,
with heavy rock, and AC/DC were always top of my list, to
shake my head too, now, the best bit is since I grew my hair,
it gives such a great feeling to headbang, yes, headbang,
when your hair rocks as much as the rest of you.

I loved it, and ended up having great craic with some
long haired denim clad bikers, no need to be young again,
because the people who were young with me, are much better
fun now we arent trying to impress anyone, or be cool, its nice
to be myself, well maybe a little more relaxed than my normal behaviour.

What the hell, I have learned nothing is for sure, enjoy what is enjoyable,
and do what is doable, live, laugh, hope to love, and embrace the moments!!

That is what I am striving for anyway.

M