Happy Birthday Noreen :-)
Thank you for your love and support and your strength.

Sorry today was not about celebrating your birthday
it so should have been, the rest of it should have been
put were it belongs in the trash.

we will go out the weekend, and lets have an all about you night.

Love always little sister.

M

On my three day off, the girls and I went to the cinema,
we saw Deathly Hallows, Part 2, the final film
in the Harry Potter saga.

I read all the Harry Potter books,
I loved them, I started reading because
my son was reading it, and I wanted to make sure
it was okay for him to read, I think he was about
ten, but that cant really be, because it was only
yesterday!!

I remember I was hooked, when Dumbledore died, I was horrified,
I didnt see that coming, JK Rowling really knows how to tell a story
and to keep people reading through seven books, wow.

Anyway the films, were a very good adaptation on the books,and
the actors really were just as I imagined them in my minds eye,
so I was sad for the last film to come, but looked forward to it
also, Im not sure whether the girls came for me, or I went for them,
but I have a suspicion it was a bit of both, (but more them for me)...

We sat in the cinema, and for almost two hours and fifteen minutes there
was hardly a word from anyone, I only saw two people go to the loo,
and at the end of the film there was spontaneous applause,
how good was that.

Another good day all round.

M

So how interesting is this,

I got asked out on a date. Was it a woowoo moment,
No, I was kinda horrified, taken aback and pleased,
all at the one moment, he is a nice guy, but not my type,
Jeez do I have a type, its twenty five years since I looked
romantically towards any man other than himself.

Yep I have a type, anyway, I said not this week Im busy,
maybe next week give me a text, he is a nice guy,
but I really dont think Im ready to go there, and when I am,
it will have to be my type, plus at least 10 years background
history known to me.

I think I might be limiting myself too much, we'll see.

Oh the thoughts of it.

M

Today I went bowling with the girls,
their cousin and a friend,
we had a laugh, it is amazing
how competitive everyone was,
even though no one said it,
everyone was watching their score,
and not impressed when someone beat their own score.

I of course was beat hands down. boo hoo

Next time its crazy golf,

Im insisting!!

Late last week I met with him
I was trying to arrange to meet an old
friend on the same day, she lives in the
town he now lives in, unfortunately she was working
when I was in town so we couldnt meet.

Anyway the next day she texted me how did you get on.
I did the usual moan, I cant believe him,
he is a horrible stranger.

Her reply has stayed with me, Maria, its been a year
you are a strong woman, you will be grand.

To be honest, I think she meant to say,
'shut the f..k up'
I think maybe she is right, people must be sick
of the constant whinge by now, so I am going to try and
shut the f..k up,
I will try and go back to
the moved on from this new year start blog.

I do have good times, funny times, loving family times
So I am going to try and stick to them,
they will probably do me good,
probably do anyone who reads them good too.

Lets hope it lasts.

M

This week I got mad at him, really mad
there was a good reason for this, I guess there usually is.
Anyway, because of decisions he made, to keep me in the dark
about his losing his job, almost four months ago,
and when I found out, suddenly he has no cash to pay,
no redundancy left, conveniently, now I and my kids and our home
are up shit creek without a paddle.

I guess the only thing is I was expecting it to happen, just not
for another while, I was hoping to get their big exams out of the
way next year first.

So yep, I got mad, and when I fronted him about it one of the days,
Mr Horrible came out, told me back to square one that it was my fault,
he was in this position, my blah,blah, blah, and you know what, well
Mrs Horrible came out also.

The problem for me now is, that she stayed, she looked at this guy,
and for the first time in this god awful saga, I hated him.

My son was in the upstairs bathroom and he heard some of the crap
this guy was spouting, and he knew I was upset, but what can you do,
what can anyone do. So a new me has developed from all this
and she is not a nice new me,
She is cranky, she is hard, and she is mean, and I dont like her
very much, and I am struggling to get past this meanness.
Unfortunately she surfaces when we meet. It doesnt go down well with
him, actually it doesnt go down well with me either, but I am beyond
fighting the hostility towards him.

Another mean thing I did was to email whore, and some of her colleagues
the blog address, why did I do this, well I guess I wanted whore especially
to know the devastation she had caused, yes I do know there were two of them
involved, but as I have said before, If it wasnt for women like whore there
wouldnt be women like me.

Did I hear back, no, well he tells me she is going to sue me if I dont
remove whore name from hismidlifemycrisis, so I told him to pass this message
on, bring it on, you cant sue for libel or slander if its the truth, and everything
I wrote was the truth of my feelings, or what I know.

Anyway I also told him, that I would look forward to reading about it in
the german and Irish national papers.

So I told him the best thing she could do, was hang her head in shame, and keep her
mouth shut.

He tells me they are no longer together, she dumped him, wait for it because of me.
I told him she dumped him because of him, not me, because he was no use to whore
anymore, he had no job, no money, no credit card to splash out, she was done with
him.

I myself am delighted to hear that news, I never wished them any happiness together,
so she wrecked my marriage, my kids and I are devasted, my home is in jeopardy, and
for what to walk away when the going got tough.

Money cant buy you love, but no money can sure lose the love quick.

The sickner is I would have stayed with him, FOREVER.
Does that make him the fool, or me.

Ah well, thats the way it is now.