This week I got mad at him, really mad
there was a good reason for this, I guess there usually is.
Anyway, because of decisions he made, to keep me in the dark
about his losing his job, almost four months ago,
and when I found out, suddenly he has no cash to pay,
no redundancy left, conveniently, now I and my kids and our home
are up shit creek without a paddle.

I guess the only thing is I was expecting it to happen, just not
for another while, I was hoping to get their big exams out of the
way next year first.

So yep, I got mad, and when I fronted him about it one of the days,
Mr Horrible came out, told me back to square one that it was my fault,
he was in this position, my blah,blah, blah, and you know what, well
Mrs Horrible came out also.

The problem for me now is, that she stayed, she looked at this guy,
and for the first time in this god awful saga, I hated him.

My son was in the upstairs bathroom and he heard some of the crap
this guy was spouting, and he knew I was upset, but what can you do,
what can anyone do. So a new me has developed from all this
and she is not a nice new me,
She is cranky, she is hard, and she is mean, and I dont like her
very much, and I am struggling to get past this meanness.
Unfortunately she surfaces when we meet. It doesnt go down well with
him, actually it doesnt go down well with me either, but I am beyond
fighting the hostility towards him.

Another mean thing I did was to email whore, and some of her colleagues
the blog address, why did I do this, well I guess I wanted whore especially
to know the devastation she had caused, yes I do know there were two of them
involved, but as I have said before, If it wasnt for women like whore there
wouldnt be women like me.

Did I hear back, no, well he tells me she is going to sue me if I dont
remove whore name from hismidlifemycrisis, so I told him to pass this message
on, bring it on, you cant sue for libel or slander if its the truth, and everything
I wrote was the truth of my feelings, or what I know.

Anyway I also told him, that I would look forward to reading about it in
the german and Irish national papers.

So I told him the best thing she could do, was hang her head in shame, and keep her
mouth shut.

He tells me they are no longer together, she dumped him, wait for it because of me.
I told him she dumped him because of him, not me, because he was no use to whore
anymore, he had no job, no money, no credit card to splash out, she was done with
him.

I myself am delighted to hear that news, I never wished them any happiness together,
so she wrecked my marriage, my kids and I are devasted, my home is in jeopardy, and
for what to walk away when the going got tough.

Money cant buy you love, but no money can sure lose the love quick.

The sickner is I would have stayed with him, FOREVER.
Does that make him the fool, or me.

Ah well, thats the way it is now.