Always, there is drama, crisis,
it folllows me around I think.

Well really that is very selfcentered of me,
because this was not my drama
not my crisis,
I am just on the sidelines watching,
hurting,
wanting to help,
but can do nothing,
can say nothing,
for nothing helps,
it probably never will.

My lovely kind Godson, also my nephew,
lost his childhood sweetheart last thursday.

She had cancer a long time, she won many many battles,
and achieved so much, in such a short space of time,
but she did not win the war,
Cancer cruelly took her from him,
from her family
from us all.

It is another of the unexplainable deaths,
the what good can it do, how can that help,
the why her, that beautiful, kind, good girl.

I cant make sense of it,
no one can.
We just have to get on with it.

My dad who is still heartbroken from the loss of mam,
was so upset, but he still says,
Life is for the Living, Maria, make it all count, keep going,
so I do, so we do,  poor Shane my wonderful nephew,
who is without his love, thats what he is trying to do.

He got a tatoo about six months ago, it says
"God gave us burdens.... and shoulders to carry them"
I guess he is right, he is just carrying a different burden now.

My youngest said, this world needs good people,
God shouldn't have taken her.

I agree.

God Bless you Ciara,
may you Rest In Peace.

M