How am I, I'm good, thank god.
Im busy very busy, but its just with normal life, thank god again.

It nice to have a bit of a breather from the dramas that enfold in my life,
on an extremely regular basis, long may this breather last....

Im still out and about, seeing my new man, who really cannot be
called a new man anymore, 1 he is in his forties and 2 its been over a year now,
so new no, but still feeling pretty new, and that is nice....

Dad is doing good, he is some man, he is an inspiration, if I have half his constitution,
I will be doing great. If he want s help he asks, if not I leave him to it, sometimes he
gives me more help than I can ever give him, and Im so lucky to have him.

My girls are doing good, oldest girl heading back to college for year two in september,
and youngest starts her two year leaving cert course in secondary school, (that should be fun)
She is such a serious studier, much more than the other two ever where, and a great little worker.
I am so proud of them all the way they have coped with the curve balls that life has thrown them,
My son is doing great, I dont see a lot of him, but he keeps in touch, (or else) :)

I miss my Mam still, when I go out to her grave, it still feels weird, like she shouldnt be there,
I do think she is watching over us, I ask her too, when I am there, you know, take care of us mam,
keep us safe and strong.
If she can she will.

My earth angel sister and I are working at our relationship, its difficult, because she thinks I dont do enough for my dad, and that hurts, but I am doing what he needs me to do right now, and I am living my life how I think is best, and pray that I am doing okay for him, because I am trying to do all the things that used to be for two, and is now for one, and its hard. Sometimes I am selfish and do for me, but I guess if I can treat me like a priority sometimes, I can live with that.
He knows if the chips are ever down I l be there, at least I hope he knows that.
I hope he never needs to know that also.

I dont see him the ex, I dont want to, he is a stranger to me, and sadly choses to
be a stranger to his kids, his loss I guess, if they werent hurt by that I d said who cares,
but they are and I do, what a pity he doesnt care too.

Anyway, what is is, and what will be, will be.
Hopefully for me and mine it will be good,
I live in that, hope....
Its a better place to be.....

M