How depressing was that last post,
sorry!!

Dont get me wrong,
as awful as I feel, and I do feel awful,
I do feel sad, I guess I am lamenting, grieving,
I'm not sure what the hell I am doing, but
I know that a new life will build,

I dont know what, how or even when,
but I am a surviver, really, I think
I am a struggler, and I will keep going
and life will change for me, and definitely
for my kids.

The young recover, yes it changes them,
but deep down, they had a lovely childhood,
a strong foundation,
we both did that,
and when they get over the hurt,
they will still have that foundation,
I think, young people are built
in a way, that they recover from hurt, and adapt
and accept change, its their survival instinct.
Thank God.

I do however hope they learn from it, I wish I had
had my eyes wide open before.
For the future
I know, never to become complacent with trust, ever,
does that make me harder, paranoid, maybe,
but guess what, it doesnt make me stupid,
or a fool, been there done that.
You live and learn, and I learnt the
hard way, so I wont be forgetting that lesson, ever.

Anyway, I shall live like my new motto,
Carry on regardless.
Its all I can do, that and hope for happiness
in my life, in my childrens lives, and
in MY new familys life.

M.