I have a friend,
I call her my forever friend,
one because we have been friends forever,
two because we will be friends forever.

We do however at times try each others patience!!

Last time was her time to try mine.

She is into religion, big time,
that is not a problem, I am thankful for it,
because sometimes without her religion she would be
a mess, also she puts a good word in with the lord,for me.
I need it.

Anyway, she is also into forgiveness, we have had many discussions
in the past regarding forgiveness, I am not as good at it as she is.

She feels this is a massive failing for me on this point,
I think it is one of my character traits, I am strong, but
I hurt, and I do not like it if people who deliberately hurt
me or mine, and when it is deliberate, I do not forgive easily,
and sometimes I do not even consider forgiving at all.

Do is make me harsh, maybe, but I am straight, loyal and true,
why can all people not be like that, then there would be no
need for forgiving for deliberate hurts, they would not happen!!

Yes a foolish dream I know, but there you are, it is on record,
I have been a fool already, whats new.

Anyway, that is the background to our testing my patience this time.

We were chatting, about him, me, and what is ahead, will I go into
a new relationship, if the opportunity presents itself,
and she comes out with a gem, a real goddam gem.

You will not be getting an opportunity, anyway,
I said "What", she goes, no not until you forgive him,
I do the roll my eyes, not that shite again, look,
and then she tops it, I mean she really tops it.

She says
"no man will want to go with you, your eyes are full of bitterness"
Holy God, I thought either she needs help or I do,
Both is probably true.

Anyway, I of course have a quick smart mouth, and had a reply,

I said, Are You For REAL, do you know nothing,about MEN,
When I do go out into that scene and I will you know,
I will be dressed up, looking good, and MEN, will look,
and they will look, but they will look at my tits and my ass,
not my frigging eyes!!, and anyway, I am not bitter to all men,
just him, the ex, Gerry.

She stared at me for a few minutes, dumbfounded maybe,
I sat and waited, and then at the same time, we both
burst out laughing at what I had said, and I forgave her,
because she thought she was helping, even if it hurt.

PS, I asked three other friends, who know me well,
Do I have bitterness in my eyes, all the time,
please tell me,
They say no, not at all, sometimes you look sad,
sometimes you look tired, and sometimes you laugh,
but mostly you just look like you!!

So that will do me.

(Im still going to wear a short skirt, when I venture out,
just in case they dont know where to look.

M