So its his birthday today,
do I want to wish him happy birthday,
No.
Why
Well of course there is the obvious reason
the standard, lying cheating ba.tard reason,
and then there is the reason,

My youngest went to town last weekend,
she came home and said to me, Mam,
I bought dad a present for his birthday,
she showed it to me, and I told her it was
a great pressie, he would love it, and
he would know she really thought about
what he liked to buy him that.

It was a big step for her, she had been
so mad at him for a long time now,
I was so happy to see her do this,
I gave her a big hug, told her she was
a great girl, and asked her when was she
going to give it to him, she said
Eh, on his birthday, in that
for gods sake mam,
when do you think tone,
that teens perfect at fourteen!!

She said she might maybe get the other two to spend that day
with him, it had been a long time so maybe because it was his
birthday they would do that and see how it goes.

My eldest girl said she would think about it to her,
but to me she said, I will go, but I bet he wont even be here
remember last year?
Oh shit, I do, he went to whore for his birthday,
it caused major upset with the kids, they were so hurt,
I remember telling him it was a mistake for him to go then,
and he told me I was wrong they would be grand,
I remember
that he was wrong.

Anyway, I asked her would she check with him,
she was not impressed
I said if you dont want to you can say no,
and then I will, but we dont really have contact with each other anymore,
I would prefer it
if you asked, she was not keen but said,
I will.

The next day, my youngest was still making plans,
about the maybe we will spend the day,
but the maybe was not as big a maybe,
so I asked the eldest did you text him, she said no,
I said please, she felt pressured I knew this, I felt
bad putting her in that position and should have texted him,
but I was trying not to,
also I knew he would take it as me stirring.

Anyway she told me she texted,
will you be here the weekend
and he didnt reply, I said he will.
He did four hours later, he replied,
No, Im not around.
oh shit again!!

When we were at dinner, the youngest mentioned it,
so I said, he wont be here, Im so sorry
so she texted him
when are you going to germany
and when will you be back
he replied thursday to monday,
it was tuesday, so he was going in two days,
and hadnt told them til now,
the sap,
she flipped,
thats it, that is it, he blew his last chance,
the pressie is going back, F..k him,
I told her not to curse, and calm down
and blah blah blah, she told me,
but he knew last year,
he knew how hurt we were
you told him,
and he went again, he went again,
why does he do that?

How do you explain to someone you love,
that their dad is putting himself first,
above everyone
how do you tell them
that the most important person
in his life is him,
and he is so wrapped up in himself
that he is all that matters,
how do you say that
without breaking their hearts
more than he is already breaking them.

So I told her,
well its his birthday,
he will be wanting
his birthday ride!!

Mam, they said together,
Mam, thats gross,
Yep I said, gross.
The conversation was over,
the dinner was binned,
the pressie, I havent seen it since,
and the damage is done.

Im hoping she gives him the pressie
when he comes home,
but its a faint hope,
when he reads this as he does
Im hoping he will cop on,
but its a no hope,

So do I wish him happy birthday
No.


M