While I have mostly resisted the urge to write,
sometimes I will give in. Its hard to silence
me, I dont really do silent!!

Things are ongoing, sure what could be new anyway,
well he is still being nice, and he is trying, and
I am resisting the comment very trying, because that
is mean and probably not true at all, its the
hurt bitch in me.

The kids are also trying, they find it very hard,
in particular the middle girl, but this week it
is the youngest girls birthday, her first without
her dad at home, and she didnt like it, it just
highlights him not being there but it is an adjustment
she will make, she will have to.

If someone asked me what would I advise a person,
who was unhappy with their life, or their lot.
I would ask them to look around, see what they have
rather than what they dont.
Look at their family, their friends, their homes,
and then imagine what it will be like without them,
or imagine what it will be like
for their family without
themselves, and if they would rather have
the what they want, instead of what they have
fair enough, otherwise, dont throw away what you
have already, because sometimes, you get what you
wish for, and sometimes well sometimes you might
thank God for unanswered prayers!