The dynamics of the Lords thinking is beyond me.

My mam  is gone from us a month today,
Miss you Mam,
the only thing about mams passing,
was its part of lifes cycle, you are born, you live a full
active life, you get old, you die. (unemotional information there)
I grasped that, I understood, and the fact that mam did those things,
helped me accept her passing.

This weekend, I got to experience the other side, the non explainatory,
the unacceptable parts of Gods great plan.

I have a friend, she has had a hard life,
she twenty years ago lost her 18 month old son after an  operation,
which he was suppose to survive.

She faced that adversety, and continued to live her life,
with a smile on her face and a kind word for everyone.

She married the man she loved, had three children with him,
he was a numpty who did not cherish the love he had,
and almost two years ago their marraige ended.
Although she still loved the bones of him, she made the best of
her situtation, and went around with a smile on her face, and a kind
word for everyone.

Nine months ago she was diagnosed with cancer, she was
determined and positive she would beat this latest challenge,
she was strong, she had so much to live for.

She faced that adversety and continued to live her life,
with a smile on her face and a kind word for everyone.

On Thursday morning at 6.28am,
my friend left this world,
she did not go easy and fought to stay with the family she loved,
but it was not to be for her, for them.

I visited my friend at home on Friday afternoon,
She had a gentle smile on her face,
and the kindness was visible
even though her eyes were closed,
and her spirit was no longer
in her body, it was in the room,
I felt it,
everyone felt it.

For the life of me though,
I cannot understand it,
I find it hard to accept it,
It is not right. It is not fair.

It makes me so sad, it makes me so grateful,
for there but for the grace of God,
goes each of us.

Rest In Peace Rachel.