Along with the emotional  changes I have made in my life,
I have also made changes to my apperance,
from the short haired red head, I am now long black hair,
(I am trying to refrain from the my widow look comment lately)

I have also reverted back to my maiden name,
before I did this I spoke with my kids, they had to be
okay with it before I would make such a change.

I am glad that they were, because it was important to me,
I am no longer her Mrs Maria ......, I am me on my own,
Ms Maria ......, I am always going to be their Mam, as he will
always be their Dad, but I am no longer part of him, officially.

It is actually easier to change back than I thought it would be,
because my maiden name is regarded as my actual legal given name.
So I get to be all me.

I have my new passport, driving licence, bank details, payroll,
almost all the utility bills sorted, it just a matter of breaking the
habit of signing the married name, because inside that girl is gone
and now outside she's gone too.


For the best I think.

M