The last post shows how quickly things change,
how life is so unexpected and complicated,
or so it seems to me anyway,

Mam of course has deteriorated, she had some
good days, mostly good mind days.
It was like her mind had come back to us,
as her body was leaving, it kinda made it easier.

The last two days has not been as kind,
especially yesterday, and then last night.
Mam is so confused, disorientated and
because of this distressed, we too are distressed.
Especially my dad, who cannot bear to see her this way,
I dont know what the heck to say or do sometimes,
Does a rub on the back or a hug help?
I doubt it, but its all I can do, and its so flippin cruel.

We need to get her home, hospital is so confusing,
there is too much going on, she has no routine, and
routine is vital to her, the patients and nurses faces change
to frequently and as long as she is there that can't be changed,
So we shall see, hopefully today, it was supposed to be
yesterday, but the team were unavailable, can you believe it
unavailable, the health service in Ireland is a shambles,
and the people suffering are the ones that always suffer,
the vunerable, the weak,
it is to the shame of humankind.

M