So far, it hasnt left my head that song,
so Shall I tell you about my life,

This last few weeks, I have mentioned my mam and that she
is ill, she is worse than ill, she has liver cancer,
and  last weekend we were told there is nothing, no treatment,
no hope.

How do you do that accept that there is no hope,
that your mam, is terminally ill, times is all she has,
and that the time that she has is limited.

Yesterday, we were told it is more likely days
than weeks, but they cannot commit, I understand that,
they do not know the will of god, more importantly they
do not know the will of my mam,
Unfortunately, desperately they do know the
will of the liver,
and when it stops
everything stops.

I do not know how you accept it,
My mam has moderate alzemheirs,
she has been getting worse, and sometimes
I do not deny, that I use to despair, and say
I would hate her to slowly disapper from us
to live in a body minus a mind, and deep down,
for me I probably still feel like that, but right
now, when I look at my brave and beautiful mam
(for she was a stunner as a young woman, and does
not look her 70years).

I look at my mam, whom I
have always loved even in her nuttiest moments (quite a few)
and I want her to stay here on this earth with us,
with my dad,
with me.

M