I have had a peaceful few days,
relaxing, resting, and quiet time.
Do you believe that, Nah, didnt think so,
not a chance.

Tuesday, I came home, was having dinner, and
the youngest went into the bathroom, Mam, she calls
Mam, I knew by the sound of her voice, here we go,
delaying the inevitable journey, I call whats up?
She is having none of the, come here, will ya.

So in I went, Look she says, look at what? following
her point to the floor, water, lots and lots of flipping water.
The choice words out of my mouth really does not merit repeating,
but I think you get the gist of it.

What had happened, well the night before,
the toilet was blocked, I did the pour caustic soda solution down,
and that hadn't cleared it, so in desperation I rang him,
and asked him to come in the morning,
and clear it with rods, as I was working,
so he said he would, and he did, whilst here, he checked the sink pipes,
but when he pushed back
the cupboard under the sink, it dislodged the waste pipe.
Now that has happened with me before, so there is no its his fault syndrome
on this one, it was just a pain, and push the pipe back in,
clean up, and then reheat your dinner drama.

Is that the full of it, No.
I got into a conversation with my son,
about his dad, I don't really know
how or who started it, but it progressed very slowly,
he had something on on his mind,
but it had to be dragged out of him.

He said Dad had told him he would be heading of to
whore valley again in the next few weeks,
(of course he did not refer to it as whore valley, he said
Germany), anyway, okay I said, sure we are expecting that,
hmm, is the reply
now he already had my attention,
because number 1 child does not talk about him very often now.

Whats going on, I asked him, nothing, he replied, are you sure,
well, its not something I really want to talk about, its not up to me,
Okay so now I am fully switched on, I asked him what did he mean, he
said, he didnt want to get into it, so I tried a different tact,
dog with a bone if you know what I mean.

So he is going there, how long is he going for the usual five days,
I say, Well no Dad reckons he will be staying
maybe two weeks this time,
I fall into my sarcastic bitch trap, ah well nice holiday for him,
sure he probably needs it. Yes I know wrong words, wrong move,
but it was out and I said it,
so I took it back, saying don't mind me, son Im being a bitch,
what is he just having an extended holiday, or what?

So he tells me, his dad told him that he was looking
at getting somewhere to live when he was over there,
that he was sussing out the situation and moving there.

Okay to be honest that was a surprise, well shock really, but I did good,
held it in, and who else did he tell this to, I asked, so my son
tells me that my oldest daughter was in the car at the time.
When was this, I asked, two weeks ago.
Now that peed me off
these kids heard this two weeks ago, and said nothing,
my daughter has been going around for two weeks distressed and upset
and I hadnt been able to get to the bottom of it, I was mad,
mad at them, mad at him, and mad at me.

I asked him why he hadnt said anything and he tells me
it wasnt the right time, he could tell that I was upset
over valentines weekend, and then there was the wedding,
he didnt want to spoil it, and anyway it wasnt up to him,
Dad should have told me. I told him his dad should
have told me, but so should he, that he had to open up to me,
so what if I was upset,that was par for the course,
but it upset me more, that they had been carrying this
worry on their own.

He said he had hoped his sister would do the telling.
I told him he was the big brother and
he should have made sure she got looked after,
he says neither of them discussed it since.
I was disappointed with that, with him,
I told him he needed to look after the girls in
these situations, he just did nt know how to deal with it,
so he closed down and said nothing to her at all.

My poor babies, what a mess.

I had to work for the next day so I said nothing to my daughter,
this could wait now,
it had already waited,
I wanted to be there for a few days with her after we talked,
because I know she is struggling, struggling with her,
with him with everything, and
it breaks my heart.

So I left it for that day.