Today I had a full day,
I dropped the girls to school, had a doctors appt,
that was okay, she thinks I may have an ulcer,
there is a surprise.

I had this conversation with another doctor, about
six months ago, and its still ongoing, but this one seems
more willing to listen, and not put everything down to stress.
Now that is a better thing for me, because I was beginning to
get fed up with everything and every symptom being blamed on stress.

I actually said to this doctor, that I had these symptoms
for the last year and my stressors really only developed in the last eight months,
so I was not happy to just leave everything to stress,
so we are looking at possible causes, physical, not only mental.
(not that she called me mental, although she may have thought it,
but was good enough not to say it to my face!).

Then I came home, tided up a bit, the usual, washing drying,
room tidying, then I went in to mam and dad, I helped out a
bit there, he wanted his car hoovered, as we have the family wedding
at the weekend, and then he went to dialysis, he will have to go again
tomorrow to facilitate the wedding, so its going to be tough on him, the
next few days. He is such an amazing man, to keep going, even when
he is sick and sore, and wore out, he keeps going, I am so proud of him.

Mam and I had a bit of a ding dong after he went, I wanted to change the
bedlinen, but she wasnt in the mood for it and wasnt having it, so she got
a bit wound up, and had a screaming match at me, it is so hard sometimes,
I look at her and she is so not well, and frustrated with herself, it just
hurts to see her like that, but what can you do, I stayed with her while she
wound down, left the bed, its not worth it, I will try again tomorrow, or the
next day depending on how her humour is then.

Tonight, the girls and I had a blast, I got talked into buying fake tan
as we are all wearing dresses, and are like milk bottles we are that white,
and there was no way, I could do the three of us at the beauticians, so I
bought a good one, thanks to the half price sale, and we tanned up, we had
a laugh doing it, so I'm hoping the results are good, we will know tomorrow,
Hopefully it will be okay, they will look a right sight otherwise
heading into school in the morning.

Now I'm in my bed, its late and I'm tired so I'm going to switch off
and hope that I get a good nights sleep, well even a nights sleep,
good or otherwise that will do.

Night, Night...

M